Sometimes I think it’s possible to have too many dreams. I find myself dreaming of several careers, homes and lifestyles. One minute I want to get a book published, and the next I want to plan weddings, and the next I want to take pictures. I’m sure I can’t be the only one (or maybe I am), but I feel this mindset is both a blessing and a curse.
First, I give myself a pat on the back for finding so many paths I want to explore. Not many can say they have one idea of where they want to go, never mind having several. I find great joy in exploring what the world has to offer. I want to see the different parts of my country, the different parts of the world. I want to try everything I’ve ever dreamed of to be absolutely sure of the direction I choose to follow. I guess I’m just one of those kids who took my parents seriously when they said I could do anything I wanted to do.
Along with this blessing, however, comes the curse. I can’t focus on one area if my life depended on it. I get bored–easily. I completely immerse myself in one interesting hobby and after a few hours, days or weeks, I’ve moved on to a new target. I can’t focus on something long enough to truly give it a shot. I look up photography courses and equipment and self-teaching books, and by the next hour, I’m binge-watching Netflix and talking myself into becoming a film critic.
One thing I’ve learned throughout this process of self-discovery is that money holds us back from becoming our truest selves. If money wasn’t a factor, I’d have opened my own restaurant. If money wasn’t a factor, I’d have started my own travel blog. If money wasn’t a factor, no one would be afraid to follow their passions or their dreams. So many more people would be fulfilled if they didn’t have to take a mediocre job just to pay the bills.
I wish I could yell at you to ignore the money and do what makes you happy. But just like the people who told us we could do anything we wanted, that would make me a hypocrite.